Break up:')

This is between me and alif, the guy i loved so much.You'll never know when you'll break up until it finally happen. Actually , it never even crossed my mind that this would happen.I swear :'( i loved him so much until i didnt even see this coming.Then finally he said, 'boo, kita clash dulu?kita jadi kawan baik?kawan rapat sangat'i was like, what the? tears were streaming down my face when you said that.Bie,kalau bie bagitahu awal awal, bagitahu boo awalawal yang boo mengongkong bie, boo bolehlah berubah. Tapi bie takpernah nak bagitahu apa apa. Semua nak pendam .Okay, cuba bagitahu gf mana tak jealous kalau bf dia still contact lagi ex gf dia?mesti kita akan ada rasa suka walau sedikit pun .boo risauu, Lets say what iff , you always stalk her then finally you want her back?benda boleh jadi tahu tak?kalau bie nak contact kawan bie ke apa ke, boo bagi, but not ex!understand me:'(Sampaikan tiba tiba malam tu bie cakap bie nak cuma kawan ngan boo, boo takbleh cakap apa apa. Terdiam, kecik sangat hati:'(you're the person that i love the most . how can i forget?do you think my heart is made out of stone?baru sekarang nak bagitahu?boo dah kumpul duit lagi untuk anniversary kita setahun, dah plan lagi nak pergi mana. pastuh bie cakap clash?apa itu clash? takpaham tahu tak?sedih sangat tahu tak?sebak tahu tak?apa selama ni bie ikhlas dengan boo?boo pun taktahu. apa selama boo teruk sangat untuk bie?boo cuba tahu tak. boo cuba!:'( boo cuba untuk jadi yang terbaik. walaupun bie banyak buat boo sedih, boo cuba tahu tak! sedih sangat harihari teringat kenangan kita,hospital,dekat depan rumah boo, kat skolah, kat mines , bila kita kena simbah air, bila setiap kali bie datang naik motor pergi kajang, mesti bie buka helmet dari jauh and senyum kat boo. Tolak boo kat kerusi roda,suap time hospital semua.Pastuh cakap nak sekadar kawan baik?I've never felt so hurt like this before.You gave me loads of memories. but you're asking me to toss it away. How?!then you said you wanted to treat me like before. Panggil boo bie bagai. sayang sayang . then bie cakap'nak penuhkan permintaan boo'. apa ni semua?!takpaham!i want you to love me,not pretending:( mana selama ni , 'bie sayang boo sangatsangat and takkan tinggalkan boo' sekarang cuma sekadar'ilytoo'. Pastuh tetiba bie cakap nak couple lepas spm,at that time, i was soooo happy ! im not lying. But then when  i wanted to talk to you. you said you're busy, you said apa masalahnya. Bie, iloveyousomuch! dont you know that? dalam kelas aku nangis, balik skola aku nangis, dalam tandas aku nangis, dalam bilik aku nangis, terseksa tahu tak?:'(Even tulis blog ni pun aku menangis:'(I really want another chance, i want you back, i want the old you:'(imissyou alif tolonglah .tolonglah jangan buat shai macamni.